I think I need to re-read Harry Potter. I used to believe in joy, and triumph over evil, and magic. I loved every one of J.K. Rowlings words. I studied her sentence structure and use of language. I miss it. I miss believing in the magic and escaping into an unbelievable world. I need to read again. I need to believe again.
I don’t want to be a “used to” type of person.
Time to get serious about lack of food. 1200 cals and working out. Fiber pills, water water water, then lemonade diet probably starting in a week. Ride that out for 7 days, and then 800-1200 cals again for the remaining week before the big day.